Another Issue with Weight

Why is losing 5 kgs in 3 months so hard?
I hope to try harder. So far, I have lost 1 kg, or some pounds.
I'll keep cheering on!
Whoop!

Green Penises and Lube - Warning: TMI!

I guess the title says it all, doesn't it?
Well, let me elaborate on that...

For Health Class, we are now in the "joyful" unit called Sex Ed and one of the requirements in SexEd is learning how to put on Condoms.
But first, formalities.
The teacher told us to sign this contract informing your parents that the student can or cannot participate in this "fun" activity.

When I got home, we sat down for dinner and then I told my mom, "Mama, we are going to learn how to put on condoms?" Very Casually. Then, my mom's face was just priceless. She seemed panicky, as though this is a bad thing. (Note: My mom is the conservative compared to my dad)
She started saying things like, "Why do you need to know this? How will the boys react?" Blah-di-blah-blah
It was up to my dad to give the OK.

After 1 week of waiting, it was what I referred to as "Cucumber Day."
Apparently, we had to imagine the cucumbers as our personal penises.
The teacher started handing out the condoms. I had a pink packet one with a pink "balloon" inside.
At first, I had trouble opening it and after finally finding the place to tear, I tore it open. The teacher said to push it downwards so it pops out.
I can't describe to you how it looked. Out popped out this small, worm-like thing covered in icky, yucky (childish words!!!) lube (spermicide... my friend told me this) and it was just disgusting.
For some reason, when you put on the thing to the cucumber, it was pretty easy.
After that, it was time to wash our hands and our green "thing-ies."
It was so awkward since the senior girls came in and the look of "What the Hell" on their faces said it all.

Oh well... that was my experience of the day?
=P

I'm On the Verge of Sadness

Sigh... I can't believe it! I really can't believe it. I think I have fallen for N. I hope it's one of those 1 day crush epidemic. Somehow, I don't think so, but it's really sad.

I've known enough to not fall for him, but I can't help it. It's that Goddamn Smile of his... It's just... *sigh* (SLAPS SELF)
Okay, I think I should just stop myself before it's too late. Yesterday kind of slowed down my development of losing interest in Nash (as a potential crush). We hanged yesterday with our eccentric family and seeing him have fun in the kiddie pool at KLCC got me thinking. But, I'm a hopeless romantic and I have been reading Shojo Manga. Evidence proving I'm crushing on him due to those two factors.

Sigh~ I think it's a PHAIL if I start liking him. It will be awkward, like L's moment. Speaking of L, I think she overreacts just a bit. But I still love her, and that's important!

Right now, I'm procrastinating my World Studies homework to write about N! Ahh~~ I should stop now...
XD

Muax~
From Miss Desperate

Hanging Out With My Family~

Okay, so I have formed a family (Technically, an EXTENDED family). I am the mother of two or three: Elle and Huei Yi (and an occasional Jennifer). On the other side, I'm friends with Akmal, who is the father of Nash. Then, comes GREAT-Grandma, who is Ameer. Technically, this is not the final Set-Up, but it's good enough, I guess...

So, here is our family outings. Some was during my Birthday, others were just random...


A Cool Awesome Thing That I wanted to try ever since I saw it. Like, I see people jump and the picture is so awesome. Never would I have thought that it would be applicable to me... Thank you Elle...


Just Mommy and her Girls...

The Extended-Extended Family: Grace and Misato... The Aunts... =P

Here is Akmal and Nash... And No... they are not "Pshah~" Pondan... They just totally love each other sampai nak mampus! It's very funny, especially in Malay classs. How Akmal dotes on his "son?" Really funny people...

Again, my daughters and me... I cropped myself out (No, not because of poor body image) because my "ahems" were sort of showing... Naughty, Naughty... XD

Jenny, my amigA in Prep and English!

NO! We are so not a couple. Misa (short for Misato) said that we look good together? Do you think so... Urm~ Not to be mean, but I think that he's like my brother... Poor Guy, shot down too many times by girls... Dx

Again, my classic "WTH?" look...

It's a rainy day

What a "joyful" rainy day? I guess the rain is my feeling personified. Well, my Mama is going to Colombo to see my Papa, and I feel a bit sad. I know, No Parents, a kid should be happy (let me re-phrase that, "TEEN"). But, it feels weird. Oh well, I hope Mama has fun.

Today was an okay day. I have a new uniform which are four sizes smaller than my previous one. 46 to 42. My mom gave me an "I Told You So" look, since she knew my self-conscientiousness will get in the way of me choosing my uniform at the beginning of the year. I guess I learnt my lesson, but now I have to wear white everyday. New Plan: Steal one shirt from Haris! Mwahahaha~

I think I have fallen for someone, but not super fallen. He is Joseph from school, but I have no pictures... DAMN it... He's super cute, and he has his braces OFF!
Speaking of braces, I am going to get them. I'm pretty excited since I have always been fond of braces, but everyone is like, "WTH? Why do you want braces?" I shrug it off... Sooner, in two weeks, you'll see me writing something different. LOL

My Birthday (9 Oct)

I know, my birthday has already passed and I'm a dreaded 16 year old. It's so annoying, since I never wanted to grow up. If I grow up, I have to face (drum rolls) WORK, TAXES, OLD AGE... and the most scariest of all... GRAVEYARD.
Let me tell you something about me:
I despise death. I seriously have an anathema with death. Every time I think about death, I have this weird stomach ache, and I get all scared, and I cry. It started every since I was 10, I guess, or younger.

Going back to Birthdays:
I had the best 16 birthday ever. People here are more nicer, in terms of saying, "HAPPY BIRTHDAY!" In Dhaka, there are Happy Birthdays, but only from my friends. Those its aren't really what you would call friendly. Neither are the deckies in this school. But some deckies are nice. I even got a decorated locker, without asking!!!!
In addition to that, I had a Happy Birthday song sang to me in ENGLISH! It was a nice day... too bad there wasn't a Mr. Wilhelm to give out candy. Did you know I saved his candy until he left. So, Birthday (9 Oct 07) to 6 June 08... Was I a dedicated student or what. When it was the last day of school, that lolipop had seen the light, then darkness, then the stomach...

But, not to diss AIS/D or anything... I still liked it there. It's more community rather than cliques. Uff... Why must the world be infested by "populars?"

Finally Back~ Love Troubles

Wow, I can't believe that I have been away for so long. It's a miracle... Actually, it's not, since I'm really a lazy bum~
So far, my life has had it's ups and downs, but what else is new?

Oh, and HYK and N are so not together anymore, but they are still friends. It's actually not due to me SPOILING moments, but rather the realization that they never had anything in common. I guess, in my perspective,that is. But, all in all, we are all still good friends.
However, another friend of mine, L, has been bitten by the lovebug (not to refer it to the Jonas' or anything). Sadly, the lovebug directed her to N. WTH? Hasn't she seen the outcome of HYK, but I guess, Love is LOVE. It's pretty weird.
Going back to L...
Well, N doesn't have feelings for her at all. He gets all angry. Example:
N: Why does she like me?
Me: She thinks you're cute...
N: CUTE! EVERYONE says that...
Seriously Harsh man... But I think he doesn't want to go back to love. I guess, it's one of those moments, when you don't want the person to be a rebound.