Nothing to do at 4 am

Yeah, the reason I'm writing a lot is because I am training myself for New Year's Eve. Yeah, it's going to be 4 days before I say goodbye to 2009.

I'm going to miss 2009. It's been a life-changing year, just like 2006.
26 Dec, 2006
The start of my Intl. School years. The date in which I embarked to Dhaka, Bangladesh. At first, I was bawling my eyes out, trying to figure out why I was ever sent to this punishment. Let me tell you, the first few weeks or first few months, I felt like a complete loner. I tried to smile, but it seems inevitable.

Then, it became better as I made friends. I mean, I still think that Dhaka, BD isn't an ideal place for a first posting, but it's good for an eye-opener. After a few years as innocent Middle School kids, some people showed of their horns at the end of 8th grade.
Suddenly, it felt like no one was who they was. For example, the flipzoos got even worse to an extent of being horny HIGH people.
Then, there is the frenemie issue! Sometimes, I wonder why I even bother. Till the last days in Dhaka, her true colors are always shown. Oh well, my "love" and hate for that person will always be a mystery, even to me.

After 3 1/2 years in good ol' Dhaka, I have to leave. Leave back to M'sia. Though it was a happy reunion, I felt sad since my Dad is still in South Asia! But I can't really tell you where he is... xD

In Malaysia, I'm trying to start anew. No more having Frenemies! No more pushover! No more being Weak!
Yet, somehow, it's starting all over again. I guess history repeats itself and I'm one of those idiots. However, I don't have to be in the constant shadow of Cornbread anymore.
Now, I feel like trying to lead, but not be the total leader. I'm trying to make a name for myself in this school full of many other students who are so much more experienced than me.
I was never in a competitive state until I came here. Damn~

Now I begin to question whether or not I should be an actress. I guess 2009 has it's ups and downs, but I like the memories that I have. It's nice...

Well...
Auld Lang Syne....

<3 the Idiot