A Week in Review: First week of Feb.

Wow, this week has been a blur.

English orals coupled with a Paper 3 test about India for History, it doesn't do so well on your body. After finishing off those two big assessments, I did not bother going to school after that.

I keep getting fits of stress this week, which means my mind was not at the right place.

So, on the day of my orals, I started becoming a bit intrigued by KL again. But not like in love with him, just like, Wow, I wonder what would happen...

The reason being that I was tired and Prawn was also stressed. I was getting a bit tired of his moodiness. Just a bit.

So then, I started to remember what it was like with KL. It was comforting for awhile when KL wished me luck for my orals before my orals started. Then, after-school, I was walking back from McD and I saw KL driving his car with his sunglasses. I was like, wow, I could have asked him for a ride.

I started thinking about this until I got back home. The what if KL did like me.

Then, I felt guilty because I thought of another guy.

The next day was terrible. On Skype, I told him about this sudden, brief KL moment. I told him I don't like KL, it was the stress. It was hard. I cried because I felt that I betrayed his love. But then, he reassured me that it was alright.

He said, "At first I was jealous and offended, but then I came to my senses."

I had to tell him because we have an honesty policy between us. It was terrible. That night.

Then, we made up. Well, he forgave me, or he said it wasn't my fault. I felt better.

Sigh.

Now, I closed my thoughts on KL. I guess it's because I never really ended my crush on KL. But after telling that to Prawn, I felt much better.

The next day, I felt okay now about KL.

I love my boyfriend, and I don't want this to end.

I asked him, "Will you still be with me after 10 years, or more?"

He replied happily with, "I love you till no end."

*sigh*

Sometimes, I feel so unworthy to have him. He's not the lucky one, I am.

I mean, he has to deal with my neurotic spatters.

My priorities to spend time with other people. I feel like I always leave him out of my life.

Sigh.

Oh well. Hopefully it'll change soon.

OHHHH. For the Walk-a-Thon, I have my decade long best friend coming. She said she's coming. I don't know if she will.

Then, my dear Prawn will be playing with his band.

:D

Yes.